interview.

my interview is tomorrow.
eek.

ever

ever stop for a moment to look at your life? ever wish your life was going in a completely different direction? ever despise where your life is? ever look into your future and utterly hate what you see? ever hate the life you're living? and wish your life could be completely different? in fact, the total opposite? sometimes i feel like going insane because the life i'm living, and the road i'm travelling is simply wrong. this path i'm walking down, i sometimes think (even after i've come so far already) i chose the wrong path, and now its too late to take another. isn't it? i just would have wasted so much energy walking all this way down the path i'm on right now, can i just give that all up and suddenly walk another way?

i think i've also realised i'm simply never happy.

i want to rewind my life.

warning: oscar spoilers

so i just watched the academy awards.

I was rooting for Kate Winslet, Sean Penn, and any award Milk was up for.
So i was stoked for Kate and Sean. I cried when Kate won.
surprisingly, i didn't cry when heath ledger won - it was all done so well.
for some reason, i found myself hating slumdog millionaire...
probably just because it was taking a lot of awards away from Milk. lol.
but i just haven't seen it.
apparently its a very good film. i should see it.
i thought hugh jackman did a great job.
LOVED the musical number
"The musical is back!"
i think thats about it :)

oh p.s. i just remembered dustin lance black made me cry in his acceptance speech. (of course :P)

announcement

much to your disappointment (well maybe 2 of you), i will not be reviewing last night's top 18 performance. i've decided against this because this blog is about anything but routine. it's quite spontaneous, and i'd hate for my followers to "expect" something from o.p.

but i will say -- i'm totally on the bandwagon of TEAM PENNY!

On the Street......Sixth Ave., NYC
The Sartorialist

gucci summer '09

love love love frida giannini

thanks to FABIOwho?

textbooks

a lot of people hate textbooks. And don't get me wrong, I totally see where they are coming from. But i secretly love textbooks. Maybe its my inner nerd coming out in me, but every semester, nothing thrills me more than standing outside the co-op, checking the text lists, writing down my prescribed texts, and then entering the store, and buying every one (even if we don't actually need them). There is just something about owning the textbook that is, i don't know, safe? Eg, I know they are always there if i need to look something up at the last minute. And more pretensiously, I like having them there, so it looks like I actually know something about something. I suppose I think they are kind of impressive. Like when people come over, maybe they are intimidated when they see these monstrous texts about things they can't even pronounce ("what is biomolecular?") and I think that makes me feel good. Thats incredibly orchidaceous, i know, so i apologise.
Having said that, however, I still have a soft spot for textbooks, and think I always will.

group

sytycd top 20 performance

BEN & PANIA - Contemporary

Choreographer: Marko Panzic
Song: "Talk Like That" - The Presets

What a great way to kick off the show for 2009! Really good energy! It was a really kooky concept, but I loved it! Marko rules lol! The Courier Mail today said it was an "insane" interpretation of a Presets number. I really loved the synchornised floorwork. really cool. I didn't like the end when they were staring at the light... stoopid.

I don't really like Pania... but she might grow on me... I REALLY like BEN! probably only cuz he's a QUEENSLANDER!! hahah. Interesting note -- Ben and Matt Lee were Chorus members together in The Boy From Oz with Hugh Jackman! (which was choreographed by Kenny Ortega and Kelly Abbey!)


EMMANUEL & TALIA - Cha Cha

Choreographer: Jason Gilkison
Song: "Hound Dog" - Smokey Joe's Cafe

Ok.. I really wanted to like this.. I mean, come on- a Jason Gilkison Cha Cha? with Talia, probably the most technically perfect dancer the competition has seen?? gotta be awesome, right? but somehow,, it wasn't.. I just didn't like it. The start was stupid.. i was like ok start dancing already, and I kept getting distracted by Talia's costume.. she had too much on I thought. I'm sorry. I REALLY like Talia though, she is so good, (well she has to be - Queensland Ballet much?) but its no secret i don't like Emman.. cocky B-Boys annoy me. So I'm just gonna comeout and say I hope emmanuel goes and Talia gets a new partner next week :)


TIMOMATIC & LAMB - Lyrical

Choreographer: Travers Ross
Song: "Rainbow" - Elisa

Hold up!!! WTF are their names???? ok seriously,, wats wrong with just calling you tim? Timomatic is just SToopid (cocky b-boy much?? haha bet you can guess i don't like him) and lamb?? come on... i'm sure you have a real name and i'm SURE its probably a better name than lamb. Ok that rant is over now.. the dance... was good. I can't really think of much else to say.. their unison could have been a bit better, but other than that was alright. I agree with Jason when he said it was a bit more hip-hoppy. I thought there was a lot of popping and i was like .. popping? lyrical? ok...... And it is at this point i will point out i HATE when they end dances and they just fade the music out... so friggin dumb. so second-rate i think.. don't they have sound engineers or something that can end the song a bit nicer than just a fade-out?? i mean, come on i think a seven-year-old could do a fade-out.... pick up your act, network 10!


DAMIEN & AMY - Broadway

Choreographer: Adam Williams
Song: "Puttin' on the Ritz" - Rufus Wainwright

I nearly died when Damien uttered the words "What is Broadway?" ....... :- ARE YOU KIDDING ME???? WHAT IS BROADWAY???? leave... now... just leave.. ughhh.. and i still can't believe he is 18... no way is he 18?!?!?! ok the dance -- well it is my favourite genre.. so OF COURSE i'm going to L O V E it. and i did. very sassy. good. Amy is EXCELLENT! she is one to watch. she is so good. her costume was SICK! loved it! Damien did a good job. better than i expected to be honest. and the jive kicks - LOVED IT!! (I love jive kicks - don't know if they're actually called that.. but thats what they are)


STEPHEN & ASH-LEIGH - Rumba

Choreographer: Sandro Catalano
Song: "My Heart Will Go On" - Celine Dion

I don't care what you say,,,, this was NOT a rumba. This was too ambitious for week one. Shame on you, sandro. They danced it beautifully, but they are not gonna get votes because of the choreography!! again, shame on you, sandro. This dance would have been so good if it was later in the comp when they knew eachother better and had a connection. but not first dance together, no way. (side note -- how STUPID was the kiss??? so forced!! i hated it! was anyone else thinking,, ash-leigh's fiance was in the top 40 much?)


CHARLIE & PENNY - Hip Hop



Choreographer: Tiana Joubert
Song: "Single Ladies (Put a Ring on It)" - Beyoncé

OH MY GOD!! HOW GOOD WERE THEY!?!?!??!!? BEST DANCE OF THE NIGHT!!!!!! LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVED IT!!! IT WAS HOT HOT HOT HOT HOT HOT!!!! so much energy!! so good!! the unison was like SPOT-ON!

And now lets talk about how much I LOVE these two... first of all I LOVE what I now call Penny's "ugly-face" not that she has an ugly face, just her face she makes when she's excited is sooo adorably-ugly!! i LOVE IT! and "embrace the Penny" was the best line!! Believe me, I am embracing the Penny!! and how funny is Charlie.... i was in hysterics when he was doing the beyonce dance and he said he needed a cold shower!! Seriously I love these two.. straight to the top of my list. standout faves. FIVE STARS!


DANNY & KAT - Lyrical

Choreographer: Debbie Ellis
Song: "Llorando (Crying)" - Angelo Badalamenti

How beautiful. Danny is my favourite male dancer in the comp. He is an AMAZING technical dancer. Kat is alright. She is lucky to have Danny for a partner.. he will carry her through, I think. Their lifts were seamless, the unison was perfect.. I actually can't fault this routine..

Ok.. now.. before the ad-break before they performed when they show the couple.. did anyone else think it was awkward and that the camera was intruding on some private serious moment? they were hugging and had serious faces on.. made me feel awkward.

And... when Jason told Kat how she is so mature, etc... her reaction to that couldn't have been any more immature!! i was like uhhh... ok..


JESSE & MAX - Contemporary

Choreographer: Shaun Parker
Song: "Kids" - MGMT

First of all I would like to say "AARRGHH" at Jesse's forehead.. I believe it to be from another planet, and it scares me. That is all. oh god this dance was horrible. I liked Max in the top100 week, but now, she has disappointed me. This was so sloppy!! the lifts were heinous!! somebody needs to teach max how to be graceful!


BJ & GIANNE - Quickstep

Choreographer: Leeanne Bampton
Song: "Sparkling Diamonds" - Moulin Rouge! Soundtrack

I loved this dance instantly! The snake is one of my FAVOURITE lifts! and Sparkling Diamonds is such a good quickstep song! The footwork was soo good. The last lift was just horrible though.. but if you look around it, it was a GREAT piece. (i actually didn't realise that BJ had tassels literally wrapped around his head, until i watched it a second time! - poor guy.. I wondered why his hair was messed up for judging)

I love Gianne! (again-- QLDer!!!) she always makes me smile! she's one of those people that lights up a room! and everybody knows I didn't like BJ... but he impressed me!! I think he might be growing on me! those jumps he did at the beginning were good! and his actual quickstepping was really good too! So BJ has moved up on my list


LOREDO & CHANELLE - Jazz

Choreographer: Project Moda
Song: "Poker Face" - Lady Gaga

First of all, can I say how glad I am that nobody mentioned chanelle's scoliosis!! I'm sick of hearing about it, and I think she would be too! There is more to her than her disability! She's a great dancer! But omg poor Loredo. I cringed when i saw him hit his head.. poor boy. but good on him for doing the dance. I think the "Slinky" would have been cool,, but the dance was great without it! I can't even tell where the slinky would have been?? But yes, I loved the concept of the dance. I LOVE project moda!! they are cool!!
side-note: HAHA at chanelle's faces she pulls all throughout the dane. classic!


SO THIS WEEK MY VOTES WENT TO:-

Charlie & Penny
Danny & Kat
BJ & Gianne

pop has won the war
war god end all joy
pop too fad for mob
god the bad est fad
one ego can say war
mad hip cat can dig
one big man ate god
nil all god and man
was eve the bad one
her joy can end war
his joy her ass end
run its the pig man

films that will ALWAYS make me cry:
(in alphabetical order)

1. Atonement
2. Ladder 49
3. Milk
4. Patch Adams
5. Titanic
6. United 93

quota.

i believe there is a quota, a certain number of words the human body likes to say in a day.
and when you've said that many words, you just don't want to talk anymore.
just sit in silence.
quiet.
why can't people understand that?

"We hold these truths to be self-evident, that all men are created equal, that they are endowed by their Creator with certain unalienable Rights, that among these are Life, Liberty, and the Pursuity of Happiness."

- the Declaration of Independence written by Thomas Jefferson in 1776

All men are created equal? Yeah, I like that. Nothing else should matter. It shouldn't matter if your man or woman; Or the colour of your skin. It shouldn't matter how much you weigh, or the colour of your hair. It shouldn't matter if you have tattoos, or piercings everywhere? It shouldn't matter if your gay or straight, or somewhere in between. It shouldn't matter who you make friends with, or what you like to do together. It shouldn't matter what time you stay up until at night, or how long you sleep in. It shouldn't matter what you choose to do with your life, or how you make your living. It shouldn't matter what neighbourhood you live in, or what sort of car you drive. It shouldn't matter what clothes you wear, or if they are "cool" or "not". It shouldn't matter what your interests are, or how you spend your free time. It shouldn't matter what music you listen to, or what movies you watch. It shouldn't matter what your favourite colour is, or your sense of style. It shouldn't matter how you talk, or how you sing, for that matter. It shouldn't matter how you walk. It shouldn't matter who you love, or who loves you. It shouldn't matter how much money you earn, or how much money you spend. It shouldn't matter.

It just shouldn't matter.. But our sick, deluded, masochistic, idiotic, crazy, bird-brained, moronic, insane, imbecilic, lunatic society somehow decided it does matter, and that infuriates me. Because somehow, although all men are created equal, yes; when these men grow up, society doesn't treat them equal. I believe that every person walking the planet has experienced some sort of discrimination in their life time. Undue discrimination which is simply unneccessary.

What SHOULD matter is that society does not judge individuals on purely that... being an INDIVIDUAL. Everyone has the right to express themselves however they want to. Everyone has the right to be their own person, but at the same time, be treated EQUALLY.

thank you.

that is all.

o.

milk

"It takes no compromising to give people their rights. It takes no money to respect the individual. It takes no survey to remove repressions." - Harvey Milk




"I know that we cannot live on hope alone, but without it, life is not worth living. And you, and you, and you, gotta give'em hope." - Harvey Milk

block.

i want to write a new post.
believe me, i do.
but i have no inspiration.

i'm gonna do an inspiration dance (in the fashion of a rain dance)

photos

some of my favourite photos from america. i wish i was a better photographer. and i wish i had a better camera.