preparing

I have been so incredibly slack with blogging as of late. An ironic representation of how slack I have been with keeping in touch with those I care about as well. The fact that I haven't seen friends in a while upsets me, so then I don't want to go out, thus creating a downward spiral of keeping to myself.

I guess I do it for a reason. In the beginning it's because I'm busy with studying or working, and then that accumulates. But on a deeper level, I suppose I am preparing both them and, to a greater extent, myself for the future. A future in medicine, which doesn't exactly welcome a thriving social life. I'm never going to be able to come to every get-together, shindig or spontaneous drinks session. In fact, I might even have to miss important dates, like birthdays, farewells and, touch wood, weddings. Working 70+ hour weeks means that I'll become next to a stranger to those who mean the most to me, and I'll see more of my patients than I will of my own family and friends. So I'm preparing for this now, hoping that we all grow used to it, so I won't lose any of my closest friends when the time comes.

If anything, I hope the time we'll be apart will only make the times we are together that much more special. I believe that laughter is the shortest distance between friends, and that true friends never part. To those who I care most about, know that despite my apparent absence in your lives, I am constantly thinking of you and my love for you grows every day we are apart, waiting to pick up where we left off last time.