bunny!

totally forgot i took this picture.

made me smile.

will you?

My head's full of thoughts.
Thoughts of you.
And I'm distracted so easy.
Thinking what to do.
So unsure.
So unfamiliar.
Am I wrong to think that something could happen?
Will you fall for me?
I need to know.
The way I'd like you to.
Will you fall for me?
The way I've fallen for you.

I'm not acting like myself.
I'm playing the role of someone else.
And my hearts beating so fast.
I can't stop it.
And I'm so unsure.
So unfamiliar.
Am I wrong to think that something could happen?
Will you fall for me?
The way I'd like you to.
Will you fall for me?
The way I've fallen for you.
The way I've fallen for you.

I think I've fallen for you.

memories

miss these guys

dior homme 09

photographer: Karl Lagerfeld

model: Marlon Teixeira

thanks to FABIO who? one of my favourite blogs

so what.

so maybe i do think about things too much.
maybe i do overanalyse everything.
but when did that become a bad thing?
when did actually caring become so horrible?
so what if i care about how my actions affect others?
did it ever occur to you that maybe thats an admirable trait in a person?
maybe thats something to look for?
rather than someone who doesn't care about anything,
who just goes through life with some blasé attitude.
because eventually that attitude is going to get them nowhere.
eventually, you need to think about your choices.
so what if i'm not one of these people who just "goes with the flow"?
maybe i like to consider all perspectives before committing to something.
or even more, maybe i like to plan ahead.
maybe i like to make goals,
have some vision for my future.
i need to know where something is going
i need to know what i'm doing
otherwise i can't see the sense in doing it.
so this is why i think about things.
you might say i do it too much,
and that i overanalyse.
But you know what?
SO WHAT?

ignore

Ever feel you're being ignored?

Like the earth could swallow you right there and they wouldn't even notice?

zipped

Have you ever wanted to tell people something so bad, but there is no-one you can really tell? You see, there is something I've wanted to tell people for the past couple of days, but its really precious information (I know that sounds so stupid - but it is) and I don't want it passed around, even implicitly. But you see, it is driving me crazy not being able to talk about it. And I keep being reminded about it, twice this week already, possibly a third tomorrow. I'm not even sure what it means, and I need SOMEONE to give me advice.. or at the very least I need someone to listen to me. It really is a difficult feeling, I feel so alone with the dilemma in my mind.

picnic

it really was the best way to see jayce and laura for the first time since i've come home. i love those too so much and we always connect on some stratospheric level. adventures are sure to be had when we plan an outing.

i love jayce's individuality and her originality. she is so much more genius than she thinks and her ideas and thoughts are just wonderful, i envy her level of creativity. she has this brilliant ability of making you feel loved unconditionally and allowing you to feel better about yourself and boost your self esteem. i love her eagerness to grow and change. she strives to be different and to move on from the past, but at the same time she is afraid of her future, but i really don't think she has any need to be. her future will shine bright regardless. her laugh makes me smile and her smile makes me laugh, i'm so lucky to call myself her friend.

i have forever cherished laura as one of my best friends. ever since i first met her, she held my intrigue. this girl was so funny and intelligent at the same time, i knew we'd make awesome friends. and we do. our list of common interests is absolutely endless, and while i'm not sure about her, i know i tell her positively everything there is to know about me. i feel at home with laura and i can divulge to her my deepest desires and secrets. i love her spontaneity and impulsive nature. she is a constant ball of energy and her enthusiasm for living life is contageous. this girl makes me laugh like no other. i can easily spend an entire day with her, from early morn till the crack of dawn the next day. i don't think we will ever run out of things to talk about.

these two often talk about being soulmates, and i don't doubt they are.
but i also believe them to be my soulmates, for they are both that special type of person who comes into your life and leaves such an impression that it feels like a part of you is missing when they are gone. they will always be in my heart.

Laura.Jayce.Brendan
forever.together.

public announcement

oh goodness, how long its been..
well it seems so anyway.
So much has happened since my last regular posts..

like...

AMERICA!!!!!!!!!!!!

ahhh i just don't know where to start..

but this post is here to let you all know that i have returned to regular posting.

good to be back :)