One thing I will mention, is I guess due to stress and other things, maybe I've seemed a bit blue lately, and apparently it is showing. Lately, I'm often being asked if I'm ok, that I seem a bit sad and down. It really strikes me as surprising that people notice this, because I usually try to put out a really positive outlook in public, so it must be a significant change for people to notice.
However, I promise you its not as bad as some people might think. Like I said, its just stress, nothing I haven't encountered before. It comes in a package-deal with a university degree, doesn't it? Not to mention the pressure I put on myself, which is completely unjustified, but I just can't seem to help it. It's just me, I guess. My life really is like a rollercoaster, up and down, up and down. The ups are amazing, and the downs downright suck.
Something that always makes me up is friends. I've done a lot of thinking about friends and friendship lately. It really is quite an amzing thing to think about. Over the past couple of months, I think I've made the most new friends ever in my life. And I've got to say, nothing beats the feeling of making a new friend. Actually, no. Something does, catching up with dear old friends. So basically any activity which involves seeing the people you care for is really quite inspiring.
Whether its a friend you met last week who you really have a connection with and are still in that getting to know eachother phase so you do fun things like see a play together, or take a walk. Or perhaps its your oldest, dearest friend who you know inside and out, and you just chill in their bedroom all night, just talking crap, but it feels like home because you are together. And then there are those times where you have a big even planned with your friends, and the day finally comes, and it is everything you expected and then some. Those are fun days.
However, nothing comes close to the feeling of bumping into a friend you haven't seen in weeks, months or even years, and striking up the most spontaneous conversation, which turns into lunch, which turns into a whole afternoon together, reconnecting and rekindling your friendship. This is a sign of a true bond with someone, someone who you can confidently call your friend.
So here's to budding friendships. And to old friendships.
Different stages of one and the same thing.
